When Your Past Comes to Haunt You

I have an anxiety disorder, and when I’m not taking classes or going to work for an extended amount of time, I relive some of my bad past experiences.


Surprisingly, I haven’t relived the house fire* recently, but I do relive some of my bad choices like how I broke up with a boyfriend of three years or that time I felt that I had to protect my friend so, I went out with her and her two strange men acquaintances.  Let me tell you it was a bad decision. Nothing “bad” occurred like us getting raped, but it very well could have happened if we didn’t get out of there.*

Anyway, bad memories are resurfacing and making it difficult to get through the day. So, I looked online and found this. Of course, I added a “With harm to none, so mote it be” at the end. You never know. After this, I might get bumped in the head! Sometimes spells follow the easy way out.

I found some cupboard herbs my husband stored (for how long, I don’t know!).

  1. Garlic
  2. Thyme

I don’t really need to ground them up.

I use jars and tea lights. So, I put the thyme and garlic in a jar. Lit the candle. Say the spell three times (with the “harm none” bit). Than blew the candle out and put it in the jar.

And viola!

I usually re-purpose jars when I feel that the spell has manifested, but this one may take a while since I have a lot of bad memories that resurface (and cause a lot of anxiety and stress) especially when I’m not working or going to school.


*My parents house burned down while I was the only person home. It happened about ten years ago.

**I wrote this post before I did the spell.

Importance of Scholarly Perspective on the History of European Witchcraft

While I understand how Wicca came about (Triumph of the Moon by Ronald Hutton is a good source), I don’t understand what occurred in Europe in 400 to 1700 centuries.


So, I have my beloved Witchcraft Reader, which gets into specifics and the book I just bought Witchcraft in Europe, which presents many primary documents, might fill the gaps in my history.

Both books are hard to read, which I understand that most most of us don’t even want to touch, but I think reading what historians say on European history would give us a better perspective on how witchcraft and paganism has evolved.

 

I feel like witchcraft (especially) has reached new heights in the modern age. On a scholarly level, this type of witchcraft can be categorized as pagan is up for debate (I assume everyone has their own type of witchery whether or not it’s pagan).

But, anyway, I digressed. Witchcraft has become a spirituality and sometimes a religion to people nowadays. It’s weird to think that witchcraft and witches started out as a scapegoat in Europe between 400 – 1700 centuries and now, it’s totally different.


Note: I’m writing this as of now July 6, 2017. I haven’t read all my historical books just yet so, keep that in mind.

Definitions

Hi! Here are some definitions including the kind of witchcraft I’m working on. If you think I should add or delete something in/from the definitions, please tell me.


Pagan/ism is someone believing in religious beliefs other than those of the main world religions/a religion that’s non-Christian/non-world religion (Google define).

Witchcraft/witch is a magical practice that involves spells, rituals, and divination/someone who practices witchcraft.*

Wicca (I do not practice Wicca so, don’t hate me for this definition) is an initiatory fertility cult/religion that centers on a Moon Goddess and a Horned God, the celebration of the Wheel of the Year (Samhain, Beltane, etc) and the moon phases, and the usage of the Greek elements earth, air, fire, and water. There is a belief in a non-Hindu karma (they have their own definition) and reincarnation. They tend to use a wand, athame, chalice, and pentacle in their religion.

Magic is the art and science of causing change in one’s self and/ or the world through mental and emotional discipline.

Spells are written, said, or drawn wishes and/or desires to the universe and to oneself to manifest (Google define).

Rituals are a series of actions performed in a prescribed order (Google define).

Kitchen is a path that focuses on the kitchen – a place of cooking, preparing, and eating meals.

Cottage is a path that focuses on herb, stone, and spirit lore in and around the home.

Hedge is a path that focuses on shamanistic aspects of the craft such as “riding the hedge.”

Green is a path that focuses on herbs, herb lore, trees, and tree lore. Green is a path that focuses on the earth-care as a sacred duty.

Traditional is a path that focuses on ancestral and (often) location-based witch lore especially of witchcraft.

Homespun path is simple home-based witchcraft that can include but is not limited to pagan, kitchen, cottage, hedge, green, and traditional witchery. It often includes crocheting, knitting, or other home-based craft in spell or ritual-making.**

I like definitions (laugh out loud). I defined everything before I got started on my path homespun witchery because I’m a nerd. I feel that defining things gives me a foundation in the craft.


*According  to the book Witchcraft in Europe, comes from the Old English word “wiccecraeft,” which only meant divination. Although, some witches don’t do divination. (Update: 6/6/2017)

**It totally made this path up. (Update: 6/6/2017 – I think it’s a bit important that I add this. This list was completely compiled by me)

Update (6/8/2017) I feel like this post is very important so I’ve pinned it to the top.

Some Witchy Items I Got on My Vacation!

Total view of the altar

I know, I keep changing my altar around, but I feel that I need one place for witchcraft. Otherwise, I’d make several different altars for different things.

Wooden crochet hook

This is very cool. I liked the idea of having a rainbow-variety of crochet needles, but it’s something magical about having just one for witch-y business. Apparently, it’s from a company in California, USA called Brittany Needles. It’s a size G 4.0 mm. I’m using it to make my mojo bag.

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Very cool.

Yarn

I bought some teal yarn and some black yarn. The teal yarn is locally made yarn. I believe the black yarn isn’t.

Homespun yarn made locally

I’m not sure what I want to make…

Herbs

I got some herbs on my way to the vacation spot (this is an anonymous blog – at least for now anyway so, I can’t tell you where I got the yarn or the herbs).

I got some lavender, mugwort, motherwort, pennyroyal, lemongrass, and wormwood. I had to stop on the way home to get some jars for them!

Lavender (of course!)

Witches Notebook

Technically, I got my witches notebook on vacation. It’s the app I was telling you about. Very cool app, by the way. I can’t get it on my PC, but it works with Kindles and iPhones. It’s from Zoho and it’s called “Notebook – Take Notes, Sync” on the iPhone and Kindle pages.

Now, I just have one notebook called “Homespun Witchcraft” with a bunch of sticky notes in it labeled “Herblore,” “Treelore,” “Ancestors,” and “Location-based Craft and Lore.”

Books

Husband and I stopped at a local bookshop and I picked up some interesting titles.

A Charmed Death by Madelyn Alt

Bruja Brouhaha by Rochelle Staab 

Both of (apparently) are second in the the series.

I love mystery books and I love anything remotely witchy so win-win.

What have you been up to?

Homemade Witchcraft

I have an interest in kitchen, cottage, and traditional witchery. I feel like I’m passed the initial beginner Wicca stage and entering into mature witchy level.*


I’ve practiced some sort of Wiccan-influenced witchcraft for about 15 years off and on, and I’ve come to realize that’s it’s not really for me. I think I want to have less ceremony and more earthy/dirty practice. Sometimes I wish that I didn’t start out reading books from Wiccan-influenced authors, but began with a traditional feel.

Homespun Witchcraft

I’ve lived with my husband in our house for about 3 years and I finally feel that I can make this house a home for me. I like what kitchen witchery and cottage witchery has to offer, but I don’t think I’d personally label myself a kitchen witch because I don’t practice in the kitchen or a cottage witch because we don’t live in a cottage. I think homespun witch is a better label. I’d even go as far as stop calling myself a pagan – even though technically, I am. I feel like that label is bound up with the term “Wicca.” After all, Wicca is the modern pagan witchcraft.

What do you think?

Anyway, I’ve never had a place to call my own. I’ve always lived in homes for about 3 to 5 years and have to move out, but I’ve always been attracted to some kind of home -based witchery. So, in effort to create a foundation in this kind of craft I have some summer goals.

Summer Goals

So, my goals for this summer is to crochet a mojo bag for divination rocks and bones, practice some sort of kitchen witchery like make teas or bake bread (or something), and make the foundation for my craft by creating a witches notebook. Now, I have a physical notebook, but at this moment, I’m vacationing with my husband and I have zero witchy items (besides the herbs I bought on the ride over) so I found a cool notebook app for my phone and my kindle.** Right now I just have notebooks titled “history”, “spellbound”, and “general.” I would ever if there’s a way to share them on a WordPress blog.

Honestly, I’ve never gotten into cooking – that’s always been my husband’s thing – but I think I never enjoyed cooking because I didn’t have a place to cook.


*Not that Wicca is not a mature path. I feel that outer court Wicca (the Wicca in published books) is mostly for beginners.

**I don’t usually buy electronic devices for myself. Both of these items were hand-me-down gifts. The notebook app is from the company Zoho.

Discovering My Witchcraft

I’m now interested in finding a witchcraft that’s has me written all over it.


I tend to read modern pagan books for ideas, tidbits, and tricks – not as a recipe. I’m not into ceremonial magic. At one time, I studied the Golden Dawn and Qabbalah, but I felt that there were too many correspondences, rituals, and symbolism to keep track of for me.

I’ve practiced witchcraft for 15 years, but I’m now interested in finding a witchcraft that’s has me written all over it. I learned to crochet from my mother. Although, she knows how to knit and cross-stitch too, but my mom is very sick with four-stage cancer so, I try to not bother her with stuff like that.

I also decided to introduce my artsy side into my craft. I bought these really cool watercolor pencils that I used for my spellbook. Today, I decided to actually put them into my altar and use them when I create a spell.

I’m not super-sure if the label ‘feminist witch’ still applies to me. I’m definitely a feminist and a witch, but I’m not sure how I can exactly incorporate feminism into my craft that fosters the ideas and tenets of feminism. I’m working on it.

Rainbows is very important to me. The cloth underneath the witch-y supplies was crocheted from my mother after the house fire.* Each of the crochet needles have a different color and each of the pencils are (obviously) different colors. I’m a queer person. Rainbows (to me) mean all people, all colors, all sexual and gender orientations (etc) – it means equality.

Where does your magic come from? Does it come from the Lord and Lady? Does it come from yourself?


*In 2008, my parents and I experience a house fire. That cauldron was  the only thing that survived.

A Little Crochet Magic

I decided to go simple and start practicing witchcraft as a non-Wiccan practice so I’ve incorporated some of my artsy style in it!


On the right, I have my mortar and pestle, but as you can see I have my crochet needles in a jar. Each one has their own color! I can color-code spells!

On the left, I have my scissors and a jar to put my “finished” spells in. I’ll put the crochet chain inside it along with the paper with the spell on it.

I’m not sure what I want to do with the crystal yet.

I like to use watercolor paints so, when I’m ready, I can finish coloring the paper and say the spell. I wanted to to do the spell as I was making my chain, but I wanted to see how the yarn would hold up (it’s new – I’ve never used it before).

Anyway, this is new for me, but I wanted to discover and make my own craft – not follow it from a book.

What do you think?