I made an about me page, which I avoided doing because, for a while, I hadn’t known what kind of witch I was. (Sorry if this post doesn’t make sense or doesn’t give any sort of closure – I’m just thinking out loud).
It’s true that I have been a witch since I was 12 years old. Because I practiced off and on, it’s been about 15 -18 years. Now, I want to change all that actually practice every day and create my path.
I’ve always liked Domestic witchery because when I was a kid I didn’t get my own space. When I was a toddler to 12 years old, I slept out on the couch in our trailer. I didn’t get my own room until we moved into our father’s log cabin he built.
When I was 13, we moved to the log cabin. After I graduated from high school, one day, Hecate came to me and asked me if I wanted to live or die. Of course, I said that I’d wanted to live. The next day, while I was home alone, our dryer caught on fire and burned the place down.
(I never told anyone this – mostly because I don’t want people to think I’m crazy, but also because it’s a personal experience, but lately, I’ve read a lot about divine interventions on other blogs. Most people say that they get dreams of the Gods talking to them, but for me, this could never work because A) I don’t sleep well at night and B) I don’t recall my dreams most of the time. So, for the most part, if someone wants my attention, they usually whisper something in my ear.)
Today, of course, I honor Hecate for the choice She’s given me, but it’s been a long time coming though because for a while I moved from place to place. I started college. Moved into the house I have now. Graduated college. Started four-year college. One of the reasons I stopped practicing witchcraft so much was because I wanted to stay at a permanent place so I could breathe and create my own witchcraft. Namely, a Domestic one.
Now, since I started my daily devotionals to Her and Hestia, Hecate has been guiding me to Hellenism, but I feel that ultimately it’s up to me whether or not I want to pursue it or call myself “Hellenic.” Right now, I feel that I’m Hellenic-influenced.
I hate to compare the two, but I’ve never felt totally connected to Modern Pagan Witchcraft or Wicca (or Paganism, in general). I don’t know know why. I don’t like the term “Pagan” – even though it’s become a safe word to call yourself around your loved ones. To me, the word means “peasant” or “country-dweller” – or at least that’s what I’ve read – and I don’t see that in my practice or my identity. If anything, I’m middle class and a town dweller (lol).
I understand that Wicca/Neopagan Witchcraft was created for witchcraft, but it really doesn’t fit me. Maybe Hecate knows that Hellenism is more my style so She’s been guiding me to that path instead.