Today, I feel like I have to choose to either continue looking into the Hellenistic/Hellenic path or focus on making my witchcraft practice. *
My plan was, and this seems super grotesque now that I think of it, to make some of the Hellenistic beliefs and practices a foundation of my witchcraft path. This would not make me a Hellenistic Pagan, just some witch using Hellenistic ideas, magic, and practices, which is fine by me.
From what I’ve read, I love the Hellenismos path. It almost brings me to tears thinking about how beautiful the path is and I thought about becoming a Hellenistic Pagan myself because I feel that you should honor the Gods as they are supposed to be worshiped. And so, I’ve been studying how to do that.
However, if I wanted to pursue Hellenismos as a religious path, I’d have to dedicate all of my free time that is usually reserved for witchery, crocheting, and video gaming to the Hellenistic path only, which I would be willing to do if I choose this path.
However (again), throughout my short time studying Hellenismos, I’ve felt stressed and anxious about doing the wrong thing, which is, because I have an anxiety disorder, is a bad thing for me.
I think for now, I’d like to continue to create my own witchcraft practice with the Hellenismos system in mind. I’d like to honor the Gods in a way that feels right to me.
*Sorry if this post makes no sense. I’m just trying to work some stuff out.