Discovering My Witchcraft

I’m now interested in finding a witchcraft that’s has me written all over it.


I tend to read modern pagan books for ideas, tidbits, and tricks – not as a recipe. I’m not into ceremonial magic. At one time, I studied the Golden Dawn and Qabbalah, but I felt that there were too many correspondences, rituals, and symbolism to keep track of for me.

I’ve practiced witchcraft for 15 years, but I’m now interested in finding a witchcraft that’s has me written all over it. I learned to crochet from my mother. Although, she knows how to knit and cross-stitch too, but my mom is very sick with four-stage cancer so, I try to not bother her with stuff like that.

I also decided to introduce my artsy side into my craft. I bought these really cool watercolor pencils that I used for my spellbook. Today, I decided to actually put them into my altar and use them when I create a spell.

I’m not super-sure if the label ‘feminist witch’ still applies to me. I’m definitely a feminist and a witch, but I’m not sure how I can exactly incorporate feminism into my craft that fosters the ideas and tenets of feminism. I’m working on it.

Rainbows is very important to me. The cloth underneath the witch-y supplies was crocheted from my mother after the house fire.* Each of the crochet needles have a different color and each of the pencils are (obviously) different colors. I’m a queer person. Rainbows (to me) mean all people, all colors, all sexual and gender orientations (etc) – it means equality.

Where does your magic come from? Does it come from the Lord and Lady? Does it come from yourself?


*In 2008, my parents and I experience a house fire. That cauldron was  the only thing that survived.

A Little Crochet Magic

I decided to go simple and start practicing witchcraft as a non-Wiccan practice so I’ve incorporated some of my artsy style in it!


On the right, I have my mortar and pestle, but as you can see I have my crochet needles in a jar. Each one has their own color! I can color-code spells!

On the left, I have my scissors and a jar to put my “finished” spells in. I’ll put the crochet chain inside it along with the paper with the spell on it.

I’m not sure what I want to do with the crystal yet.

I like to use watercolor paints so, when I’m ready, I can finish coloring the paper and say the spell. I wanted to to do the spell as I was making my chain, but I wanted to see how the yarn would hold up (it’s new – I’ve never used it before).

Anyway, this is new for me, but I wanted to discover and make my own craft – not follow it from a book.

What do you think?

If We’re Having Coffee

I like to take a break from blogging and actually practice my craft (that’s what the weekend is for) so, I’m writing a #weekendcoffeeshare post on Mondays.


Hi! I heard about this weekend coffee share thing a while back when I was thinking about starting a blog on feminist witchery.

I’d like to invite you into my home. Careful! I like my coffee very strong and very hot!

I’ll start off by telling you that….

In the beginning…

On May 19th, I sat beside my altar and realized that I’m a feminist witch. I went online to find out what that label means. The search engine pulled up stuff on “W.I.T.C.H” -incidentally, I don’t adhere to most of their tenets.

I decided to make my own feminist witchcraft from feminist sources such as Jessica Valenti, Jennifer Baumgardner, Amy Richards, bell hooks, Simone de Beauvior, as well as witch-y sources such as T. Thorn Coyle and Starhawk, and others.

(Note on pagan authors: I don’t believe in the burning times or that there was a ‘witch-cult.’ There’s no evidence to suggest these two hypotheses are true.)

I’ve been a feminist since I can recall. I just knew that the bullying was not my fault, but the way our culture is setup – everyone is programmed to blame the victim. When I was a kid, all my mom would say to me about the bullies was that they liked me. That’s why they threatened me and intimidated me.

Ganging up with two other boys and laughing at you is a weird way of saying “I like you.”

Although, it’s possible that they saw something in me that made them mad about their situation. I believe that one of the boys was abused at home and that seeing me – mostly a carefree spirit – made him upset.

That said, I don’t care who you are…I’ll be a carefree spirit!

Staying far away from Wicca…

I’m re-reading some of my pagan books. While reading, I decided to reject Wicca and the erroneous history that a lot of Wicca 101 books have.

As I’ve said, I’m not Wiccan, but most my craft is built on it (I suppose I’m a pagan witch). I’m now at the point in my path where I’m sick to the teeth of Wicca and the people who use the words Wicca and witchcraft interchangeably.

Making my own craft…

My witch’s notebook is in the works. Wiccans like to call their notebooks “Books of Shadows” – I’m not sure where this term originated, but I hate it.

Anyway, I’ve put it a lot from my favorite authors. Eventually, I’d like to get one of those hand-made journals and make a notebook that entirely of my own making.

History….

For the blog, I’d like to write about what historians said about the European witch trials. This is mostly for me because if I don’t blog and publish anything about it, I won’t learn about it.

Staying on the path….Daily

My goal is to practice witchcraft every day. So far, so good, but I’m guessing that this may slide once vacation turns into the work-week!

That’s it

What have you been up to?

What Witchcraft Means For Me

Last post I defined witchcraft for many, but in this post, I described what witchcraft means to me.


For me, witchcraft is a spirituality – not a religion. It’s a simple path of spiritual understanding, expression, and openness to both light and dark; to inner and outer worlds.

I mostly do spells and rituals for healing, happiness, grounding, and centering. I feel that I don’t need to hurt anyone with my magic unless I feel threatened in any way, which, by the way, is pretty rare. After every spell, I say “With harm to none, so mote it be.”

I began learning about Witchcraft as a Wiccan religion – so, I ended up with a hackneyed form of the Wiccan Rede. I feel that there’s so much I don’t understand about the universe so, just in case, I ask that my spell or ritual harms no one.

I guess you could probably call me a “fluffy bunny,” although, I understand now that Wicca is an initiatory fertility religion that you must be granted access from another Wicca to participate in, which is something that most fluffy bunnies don’t get.

It’s not their fault due how New Age books present witchcraft.

Also, I’m not Wiccan.

I don’t use wands, athames, chalices, or pentacles (even though I use the Tarot, which have all these things). I do use a cauldron (in the middle of the alter), a mortar and pestle, salt and water bowls with a help of a crystal, and I enjoy using divination (I tend to use Tarot and Daughters of the Moon).

Like in a previous post, I don’t believe in the Threefold Law or Wiccan karma. I don’t see divinity as a “Lord and Lady” or as parents guiding their followers. Nor do I worship(?) a heterosexual divine couple; a Horned God and Moon Goddess.

I also wanted to add that I don’t believe in the “Burning Times” or “Murrayism“.

It’s part of my craft to seek the truth.

Also, I wouldn’t call myself agnostic or atheist. Like I said, there’s so much I don’t understand of the universe to assume that there is a god or that there is no god.

I tend to lean to the label “philosophical.”

That said, I don’t believe in mythical creatures. The universe is so beautiful as it is, I don’t think I need to tell myself stories.

Feminism 

While I’m not a baby witch, I am a baby feminist and I’m still learning about feminism.

Feminism upholds the belief in equality of all. I have my own feminism. I choose to be child-free. I choose to go to work and make money. I choose to practice witchcraft.

As a feminist, I believe that everyone is equal and whiteness is not the “default.” However, I do not care for cultural appropriation and stay away from it as far as I can in both my witch-y practice and in life, but, even if I feel it’s disrespectful, I do not accuse or call out others about their path.

I also don’t subscribe to the view of that a matriarchy is better than a patriarchy. I feel that everyone is and should be treated equally.

What I’m interested in

I’m very interested in using herbs and stones – although, I’m at a loss as to how to start. At first, I looked up various herbal books – one being Cunningham’s books on stones and herbs, but I found out that these books lack history of the herb and stone. So, I’m left with the internet and what I think I have in my possession.

Defining the Word “Witch”

With the knowledge that 1950’s pagan authors may have got the history of witchcraft wrong doesn’t mean that we have to do away with the word “witchcraft” altogether.


I have a scholarly anthology on witchcraft called The Witchcraft Reader edited by Darren Oldridge. I saw it on a bookshelf while working a college textbook store. I had to get it because all my life I read Neo-Pagan books on their account of history of witchcraft and I had to know what the experts had to say.

As it turns out, according to The Witchcraft Reader, Margaret Murray* is not a credible source. While she referenced witchcraft confessions, she used some bits and left the rest to give the idea that the confessed described real events.  There’s no evidence of these witch meetings. The rest of the confessions included flying on broomsticks and transforming themselves into animals, which aren’t physically possible** (pg. 7).

What does “witch” mean?

We already use the word ‘witch.’ Why do we need to define it?

As I’ve said, evidence suggests that there wasn’t a witch cult. Knowing this, it’s possible that the entire history told to us pagans through introductory Wicca books were wrong. (I think they’re wrong.)

Since most witches depend on that history for their identity, spirituality, and religion, it’s possible such a path would collapse if they sought what historians said.

After reading some of the entries in the anthology and discussing the craft with other members, I’ve come to a definition of witchcraft that I think most could agree on.

Witchcraft is a magical*** practice that involves rituals and spells.

Witchcraft can be religious, but it’s not a religion. Rituals are a series actions written or told for others to follow (Google define).  Spells are forms of enchantments. They are words written or said with the goal in mind (Google define).

There are so many different kinds of witches – Wiccan, Pagan, Satanic, Mexican, African…The list goes on. Whether they are bad or good, there are witches.


*Margaret Murray

**[without the use of psychedelic drugs…] I’m inclined to believe that Murray purposefully left out the bit about drugs, which leads me to believe that she did not have an objective perspective on the history of witchcraft. But this is my personal account. I’m not a historian.

***Magic is another word that can become just as confusing and irritating to define. While the Aleister Crowley definition is almost always used, “…the art of changing consciousness at will..” it doesn’t describe what magic is or what it does. For me, I see magic as a way to transform my perspective, make myself become more human, and make my inner child very happy.

References:

Oldridge, D. (2002). The Witchcraft Reader. London: Routledge. Print

(n.d.). Retrieved May 24, 2017, from https://www.google.com/search?q=ritual+definition&oq=ritual&aqs=chrome.1.69i57j0l5.3859j0j7&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8

(n.d.). Retrieved May 24, 2017, from https://www.google.com/search?q=ritual%2Bdefinition&oq=ritual&aqs=chrome.1.69i57j0l5.3859j0j7&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8#safe=active&q=spell definition

Going Through Sadness

Almost every night, I’d have nightmares. My brain got scared of the bad dreams so much that it’d wake up early in the morning before the ordeal fluttered under my eyelids.


Nightmares tend to come because of underling issues such as unpacked sadness, depression, anxiety, and stress. (At least for me.)

Fortunately, I’ve come across something that works to replace my nightmares with (well, lets be honest) weird dreams.

Hey, it’s an improvement!

There are a few things that I’ve adopted (adapted?) into my practice.

1. Meditation.

I use the meditation app Meditation Studio. It’s very good. I recommend it to anyone. It has a lot of different people narrating the various meditations.

2. Stuffed toy.

I use my stuffed koala for times of stress, anxiety, and sleeplessness. (My husband named him/her after Euclid the father of geometry. He likes math, lol).

3. Journal.

I write down what makes me sad. I begin with…”I’m sad because…”

4. Painting, coloring, and drawing. 

I absolutely love making art, but sometimes it takes a while on a big canvas – it becomes a big project. With a little sketchbook, pens, colored pencils, watercolor, and watercolor pencils, I can make art almost anywhere.

A Sacred Space of One’s Own

I lived with my husband* for about three years in this house and it is the first time in my life that I have a space to practice witchcraft.


When I was growing up, we all lived in a trailer. My sister got her own room. I had to sleep out in the living room.

When my parents and I finally moved to our house, I had my own room, but this was for a short time. Five years after moving in, a house fire took everything we had. We moved to a relative’s house and yes – I did have my own room, but I had no place for an altar.

At my parents’ house, before the house fire, even though I did (finally) have my own room, my mom would come in uninvited. I recall one time, when I was meditating, she nearly gave me a heart attack. Since then, I could never fully meditate without thinking someone was going to walk in at any moment.

After about a year, I moved in with a boyfriend where everything I did was nit-picked. We constantly argued about my spirituality. I kept my altar in our room, but when I wanted to practice, I had to wait until he was gone.

I finally broke it off and moved into my own apartment, but I had a crazy landlady who would go into my place. I never told her I was a witch, but she mentioned it to me a couple of times.

When I met my husband a few years ago, I wasn’t practicing witchcraft that much. So, we never really had the “conversation.” I was eye-ball deep in college trying to get my degree in Liberal Studies.

I moved into his house and he gave me my own room (it was his office) and he moved all of his stuff down into the basement. I still wasn’t practicing until about a year ago. I realized that witchcraft helps me calm down, center, and become present. Not just that, but, as a spirituality, it’s the only real thing that works for me. I like how I can actively do something about a problem and through a spell, let it go.

Every object in my altar has a story or a purpose. The cauldron survived the house fire, those Steampunk Tarot and that little Tarot deck was given to me by my mom.  I found that bird’s nest at a crazy depressed time of my life showing me that I can make any place my home. The Daughters of the Moon Tarot was a gift from a fellow witch.

It’s a little crowded in there. My mom made that rainbow blanket underneath and a friend helped me build that chest – it’s a bit small. I may ask my husband if he could help me make a bigger chest.

Anyway, I finally a place to focus, meditate, and relax. My husband knows not to walk into my room when the door is closed (even if I’m typing at my computer). We try to give each other space.

I have anxiety. I also suffer from nightmares so, since this summer, I’ve worked on meditating and spell-work every day to release sadness and depression. It’s really nice to have a space to call one’s own!


*I’m queer. I like woman and men. I don’t like the word “bisexual” it implies there are two genders.